Sweet, Sweet, Lemons!

For my third post I figured that I would share the reason behind the name of this blog. I hate coming up with names for things like this. I can never quite get it right. However, with all the changes that have been happening in our family it seems perfect. When I think of lemons I don't usually think of the good, sweet things that lemons can do. I usually think of the sour taste and the fact that the juice burns if it gets in your eye. However, lemons can be sweet. With lemons you can make delicious lemonade, a very yummy cake, and they have the ability to make a yucky smelling garbage disposal smell really sweet.

Lately, the hubby and I have been consumed with talking about his job. When he originally took this job we really thought that in a few years we would be moving down south to be closer to our family. It was never part of our plan to end up in the very upper part of the Mid-West. In fact, when we moved here I cried every day for about two weeks. Anyway, last year in November the hubby had a meeting with some of his upper management and it was decided that within 6-9 months he would be transferred to Houston, or at the very least, the wheels would be put into motion for that move to happen. When six months rolled around and we heard nothing I became a "glass half empty" kind of girl.

In June, and then again in early August, he had meetings with management which left us both confused about the direction we should be/ and are, going. There was essentially no news on the Houston move other then it was being discussed as were other possibilities. So, here we are, almost to September, with no idea of when, or where, or if we will ever be relocating closer to home. Thus, the sour lemon part.  We had been planning on this for three years and to know that it may never happen was really a huge let down.

With the above being said, there was really something very sweet that came out of the whole situation. After our initial frustration with the situation diminished somewhat, we talked about it and decided that the best thing for our family was simply to just let go of the future we had planned for and to just let life happen. In that moment we both realized that the future we had been so worried about, was happening right now. We also realized that we had missed out on a lot by worrying so much about something we had no control over. Once we made that decision life became better somehow. Not that it was ever bad. We just spent an awful lot of time worrying and  now we don't. If they offer us a move then we will take it. If they want us to stay here, then we will. Either way, we have committed to being happy!

The other really sour thing that has happened lately involves my pregnancy. Apparently, my body doesn't work quite right and at 28/29 (not sure) weeks I was put on bedrest. I was on bedrest during my last pregnancy starting at 32 weeks and it was miserable. This time it seems even worse because the complications are turning out to be more serious.  Not only am I on bedrest, but I am also on progesterone shots and Procardia. In addition to all of that, I now have Dr's appointments once a week. All of this combined means that there is very little that I can do or should be doing. With these being the last few weeks with just the boys and the fact that we had to cancel our vacation, "Glass half empty" girl has reared her ugly head again. Bedrest sucks. Simple fact.

It's easy to feel sorry for yourself when you are only looking at half of the picture. In the case of the hubby's job, well, at least he has one. A good one at that. And, in the case of my pregnancy, sure the pregnancy itself is hard, but just knowing that the sacrifices that I and our family are making today will make a world of difference Baby K's life, makes it all worth it. Because of the bedrest, shots, medicine, etc. she has gained 3 more weeks in so far. That three weeks means less complications for her, which is wonderful and a huge blessing. All worth it!

So, with all of that being said, even when something seems sour, I believe that there is a way to see the sweet. Sometimes you just have to take a step back, breathe, and let go.

Kristen